I just want to be

Fool enough to almost be it
and cool enough to not quite see it
and old enough to always feel this
always old, I'll always feel this

No more promise no more sorrow
no longer will I follow
can anybody hear me
I just want to be me
when I can, I will
try to understand
that when I can, I will...

- Smashing Pumpkins, Mayonaise