On life as an addict

Understand this, it's not death that terrifies - it's life. Life is the horror, the unbearable living. We are suffering from life trauma... the miserable, shambling, boring, self-pitying lives we have fashioned for ourselves, alone, with shaking hands and tearful despair.

- AA Gill, Pour Me

Was there anything..?

I don't know where she's living
All I've got is a card
A picture of her at the pyramids
A knife held to her heart

Was there anything I could do?

- The Go-Betweens, Was There Anything I Could Do?

In a state

your shame is never ending

just one psychological drama after another. 

you are guilty and how you ever entered into this life

God only knows 

- Erasure, Drama!

Is there an end?

Even the weariest river
Winds somewhere safe to sea

- Swinburne